House Cleaning

Today I did an overhaul on my apartment. Moved everything around.
Felt very productive and super strong by lifting heavy objects.


The goal is a new, organized home. One I feel is mine and isn't constantly being haunted by my married past. I've been re-unmarried for over a year, and every now and again something of
the Was-band's pops up. I don't get rid of it. Like part of him is still here.


I'm so much stronger now than I was last year!


It wasn't intentional that this big home renovation would start at the top of the new year, it just kinda happened that way.
I got a big, amazing opportunity at work that is allowing me to work from home,
but this required an office. And that required some reorganizing.
And it started in January.


So as I've been cleaning, organizing, and de-cluttering,
slowly little remembrances are being let go of.


The jewelry box he got me on our first Christmas together.
Dried rose bouquet I've been justifying as charming home decor.
Art we chose out together.


Seemingly harmless things that, to me, remind me of him.
Keep him here.


But he didn't want to be kept here.
And finally I'm ready to let him go, and let my house be mine.
Truly.


Lots of great stuff is being donated to charity!
My mother thought I should sell it,

but I'm really a "let go" kind of person. I hate the clutter. Once I'm done with something, I'm
done with it, and it symbolically needs to be out of my life.


And now, someday soon, my home will be a mecca of cleanliness and organization.
And my craft world will magically never become clutter again.

Hey, I am still allowed to dream.